Happy New Year!

I've been sitting here for a while, thinking and writing out my goals for 2009. I really hate new year's resolutions, because, let's face it. None of us really ever keeps them. (If you're the one that does, congratulations to you!)

I'm a list maker, so my "list" consists of things I really want to be more intentional about, the goals I want to pursue not just this year, but the ongoing things I want to be striving for in the years to come.

As I've sat reflecting on this past year, I'm realizing that God has been showing me so many insecurities in my heart...so many ways I struggle in my daily walk with Him. So many of the struggles I have center around my lack of willingness to trust Him...really trust Him.

This trust, or lack thereof, has such a huge impact on the major areas of my life where I desperately WANT to succeed. My marriage, parenting, finances and service to Him are four huge areas where I often lack trust, and these are the ones in which I desperately need to let go of my own self-sufficiency and instead cling tightly to His hand. After all, He alone can give me the victories in these areas!

So this year, as 2009 ends and 2010 begins, I am reflecting tonight on Proverbs 3:5-6:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.